In a quiet empty space

I'm really feeling the homesickness now. It really took some time to kick in but now that it's here I feel like I'm in this bubble of nothingness and black spaces.

I'm doing things to occupy my time but nothing seems to be really working out and honestly I feel a bit scared of my own thoughts sometimes.

Nothing really seems to be cheering me up now and I don't really have anything to look forward to when school starts. Maybe Physics. I can totally immerse myself in that and not care about design studio and such. I should've become someone who just learnt about Add Maths and Physics. Hahahaha, I might think the opposite if I had took those up.

Sabah Tea is the best tea in the whole wide world. I'm glad I took them back with me.

I can't even call this place a home. I still feel like I'm in a strange and foreign land and I just couldn't care less about what those people around me think of me. I'm too tired to care how I look like.

But you know what they say, it's always darkest before the dawn.

So maybe something awesome will happen soon. If I could meet EXO in person that would be great hahahahaha.

I want to get obssesed over something again, hopefully over manga making. I seem to be too blue these days to actually stick my head back into it and for the first time ever, I'm actually in the process of planning the panels out. If I could just convince myself to get right back into it, I'd be at it for days and that I'm sure of.

It really feels much better typing all of these out rather than keeping it inside. It feels like I'm actually talking to someone even though I'm not.

Yeah. I feel much better now.