What's left

Sometimes I wonder if I really do make any difference in anyone's life or not.

I'm in a strange mood again but I think it'll help me concentrate better when I do my work after this. I'm not too sure if I can express this well enough but I'll just try.

I feel like I'm only needed at certain points and then for the rest of the line it's okay to forget about me. Like, you don't need to make contact with me anymore.

I guess that in itself is partly my fault as well but I am trying to be more approachable these days.

I have yet to find someone I can really connect with and although there are some people that I've met that is nice enough to me, I just wonder whether or not they're really sincere in our friendship.

I guess I really look like the kind of girl who doesn't care about others but really, it's the opposite of what is thought by most people.

I wonder if anyone is thankful that they met me because I'm always thankful that I have met the people that I have cause if not, I wouldn't be the way that I am today. I bet there are people who regret meeting me but I guess you can't win over everyone can you?

All that I know is that I am doing my best to bring out the best in me. To be good, to be kind, to be compassionate and all of that even though I am really not good in showing it physically.

I will continue to strive harder and to hope that there is light at the end of this tunnel.