Summer holiday thoughts

It's been so long since I've had the time to think again. I guess I'm very easily influenced because now that I'm surrounded by my family members again, I'm starting to be more calm.

Or maybe it's because I'm no longer alone. In that way, I no longer have the time to just think about my life and all that makes up the person that I am right now.

For one, I put my art on hold. I have been drawing at least an hour consistently now that I'm back in my hometown but throughout the time I was in the UK with my siblings, I hardly touched my pencil. I did manage to finish off a drawing which I am quite proud of because of the way that I was able to represent the texture but it isn't that good actually.

Inspired by the British countryside and the blooming flowers that were so saturated with colours.

But now, I really am not even doing my best to get into the zone to draw.

So I'm really hoping to get myself involved in drawing a heck lot again.

My sister showed me a girl who she thought was an amazing artist who got commissioned and honestly, I do think I'm better than the girl so when I mentioned that the artist was good and I needed to work harder, my sister didn't respond which clearly shows she thought I wasn't that amazing just yet.

She changed her mind though, after she saw a digital painting that I drew.

But it still goes to show that I need to improve a lot.

So I will work hard over the summer and late into the night if I have to.

That being said, my body is going to be pushed to it's limits and it won't be healthy and thus I will look even less presentable and decent.

... I am really not a girl who cares too much about how she's maintained and about how I look... Sadly...

I would have probably gotten a boyfriend then hahaha.

I do exercise and all but I never found it much of an interest to go further into them anyway.

I guess I really love drawing more than my own personal beauty hahaha.

But then again, I believe in inner beauty which comes from happiness so I'm just going to let that be my all-natural make-up.

I really hope to improve over the summer. It's the one thing that's really on my mind now. Even my fortune reading says so.

And that is something which I will talk about in another journal post probably.

Okay, I need to take a shower and then draw like hell. Right now.