I spent the last hour listening to my roommate and making small commentary here and there because I knew that she needed to get things off her mind and throughout that time I realised that I'm really looking for someone who is willing to listen to me without me having to worry too much about what they think.
One of my projects got evaluated today and it got an A-B which is actually very good considering the fact that only 2 teams got A and 4 or 5 got A-B. I'd like to think it's partly because of the drawings that I completed that we got such high marks but I wouldn't want to think so all the time.
I really felt pleased with myself because of it though because a lot of people came to look at it and to just contemplate it for a long time, even the guy who I shouldn't have any feelings for.
Honestly, I lack the motivation to do anything much these days. It's really affecting me a lot but I can't say it out all the time because I don't want to bother people with it too much.
I will study a bit tonight and buy some books online.
And I guess that's about it for now. I can't exactly express myself the way and as freely as I wanted to even though I thought I could. I guess feelings aren't really meant to be represented by words but rather through action and emotions, if the emotion bit makes any sense to you.
I do think I'm still stubbornly hanging on a thin string and I hate myself for it. I really need to find a distraction from this, a good one that is.
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