Cause you're beautiful just the way you are...

For sometime now I've been really obsessed with how I look.

For the most part I was influenced by the media.

But coming in at a close second are people near me who I really care about.

Why all the dieting? You're not fat AT ALL. I find you people some of the prettiest people I've actually met in real life.

I don't want you all going through all that just to look like a skeleton.

What do you get when you're a skeleton, dogs?

You want to be healthy, then start living healthy.

As for me, I give up trying to look perfect by forcing myself to do things I can't afford to do.

When Mr Right comes along, I'll know if he's the one if he can accept me for who I am. A girl who loves to eat.

I love eating. I really do.

And I don't see why I must stop myself from doing so to get some guy to like me.

So I'll gain weight and start to get chubby in places but truthfully, I think I was much happier when I was a chubby kid in my childhood then when I was some slim girl in high school. I'm learning to love myself and maybe one day when I do, I can sincerely begin to love others as well.

When I do meet the people I wish to meet I will introduce myself to them as the person who I truly am. Not some depressed skinny kid.

I hope that one day we will meet. I'm praying for that everyday and who knows, it might come true. Just like how I prayed to go to South Korea and that took some time but hey, I got there in the end.

God has the power to do anything so I'm putting all my faith in Him.

For now, I'm just going to take baby steps because when I took giant leaps, I ended up falling behind even more.

Just so you know, this is all for you. :)