Or maybe it's because I'm no longer alone. In that way, I no longer have the time to just think about my life and all that makes up the person that I am right now.
For one, I put my art on hold. I have been drawing at least an hour consistently now that I'm back in my hometown but throughout the time I was in the UK with my siblings, I hardly touched my pencil. I did manage to finish off a drawing which I am quite proud of because of the way that I was able to represent the texture but it isn't that good actually.
Inspired by the British countryside and the blooming flowers that were so saturated with colours.
But now, I really am not even doing my best to get into the zone to draw.
So I'm really hoping to get myself involved in drawing a heck lot again.
My sister showed me a girl who she thought was an amazing artist who got commissioned and honestly, I do think I'm better than the girl so when I mentioned that the artist was good and I needed to work harder, my sister didn't respond which clearly shows she thought I wasn't that amazing just yet.
She changed her mind though, after she saw a digital painting that I drew.
But it still goes to show that I need to improve a lot.
So I will work hard over the summer and late into the night if I have to.
That being said, my body is going to be pushed to it's limits and it won't be healthy and thus I will look even less presentable and decent.
... I am really not a girl who cares too much about how she's maintained and about how I look... Sadly...
I would have probably gotten a boyfriend then hahaha.
I do exercise and all but I never found it much of an interest to go further into them anyway.
I guess I really love drawing more than my own personal beauty hahaha.
But then again, I believe in inner beauty which comes from happiness so I'm just going to let that be my all-natural make-up.
I really hope to improve over the summer. It's the one thing that's really on my mind now. Even my fortune reading says so.
And that is something which I will talk about in another journal post probably.
Okay, I need to take a shower and then draw like hell. Right now.
