Turning a deaf ear

So I only exist when you have something to talk about is it?


That's usually how it goes so I'm actually okay with it but it got me thinking. A lot.


I listen when you talk, even if I don't know what it is you're going on about, and I do my best to make you feel comfortable and stuff. Can't do the same for me right? Your friend?


Wonder who I am in your eyes. Really.


Maybe next time I should just forget opening myself up again. To people like you, whom I actually thought I could begin to trust but yeah, go on and break it why don't you?


Not going to dwell on this for too long though. Haha.

Thou shalt have trust :)

Cutting to the chase, he did reply me.

:D XD :)

And it even though it was a day late, he still did.

He said he did get my text but he was busy playing Left 4 Dead with his friends so he couldn't reply and he only remembered again today.

We talked a bit and I feel happy. Really happy.

I truly know now that we can be at least friends and I am quite contented with that.

On the other hand, thing aren't going as planned for my application and yet again, I don't know when I'm going back home.

I was supposed to do stuff today but since the whole translation bit got messed up, I ended up on omegle and I met some pretty interesting people.

I must study differentiation though tonight, for at least one hour.

And then I'll just read a bit of bio.

Not going to attempt Physics since I'm scared I'll get the theories mixed and I wish I could study Chemistry but I don't have the new notes.

What to do....

Life's going to be so hectic when I get back home...

Keeping faith alive

Today, I decided to text him after 2 weeks of no interaction whatsoever with him.


"Hey. How are you? :)"


He didn't reply.


I'll admit that I do feel really upset, almost depressed cause, you know, he said it was okay to text him and he did stress that he was a nice guy.


That's why, I still have faith that he didn't mean for this to happen.


He could have ran out of credit and all or something else.


But of course, the other unwanted answer could actually be the truth.


Maybe I only texted him to get myself to feel slightly more happier cause I really miss home and I want to go home and I thought that if he replied, I'd feel better.


Such high hopes though.


I wish I can get a tablet soon cause I'm feeling really inspired to draw and make my own manga now since the story I want to read can't be found and I know that I can execute the story well.


I just wished, you know, that he'd reply me.


It can be tomorrow, I don't mind.


I didn't think that this silence could hurt so much.