Now that I'm really working hard and paying more attention to my dreams, I start to over-think things and then I start to compare myself with other great artists and I just feel so small.
I start to wonder when I'll ever reach their level.
What happens is that I'll submit a deviation and then look through some amazing drawings and in all honesty, I hate looking at them because I get so jealous that the feeling starts to go really bad inside me and I don't want that to fill my heart.
But I have to look at those drawings if I want to improve.
So after looking through them, I go on to Manga Studio and start to sketch and colour and when I realise that I can't achieve the same feeling like what I saw previously I get frustrated and then I lose interest and then I go back and look at those drawings and the cycle starts again.
I can only hope that I'm somehow moving forwards. I want to keep on walking down this path and I will do my best to find my own style.
Because in all actuality, I'm just on a path of finding myself.
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