It's funny how it only started raining the minute mom left.
I got caught in supermarket because of that, playing Sudoku and listening to CNBLUE.
I was terrified at the prospect of staying on a campus, what more when I found out that everyone here is mostly older than me and are guys. And smoke.
In fact, almost everyone in Italy smoke. Especially women. So many of them.
And for that, I fear for my life.
When mom left, I felt downright sad and depressed and I honestly wanted to follow her back to Malaysia and cry because I'm still not really comfortable being here. Honestly.
But I know I shouldn't cause it's pointless so I just listen to music. And it brings everything away.
I almost cried reading Corn's blog, really. Thinking about it even makes me choke up a bit.
But yeah, I have to grow up. People will come and go their separate ways cause life likes messing up our life like that so that our roads will cross with other people's roads.
As for now, I'm fairly doing okay.
My roommate is the best I could have hoped for. We even went jogging this morning and she helps me break out from my shell bit by bit. I've already gotten to know some other people, and they are nice, enough.
Results come out tomorrow, 10.30am my time and I just pray that I'll pass.
Cause even though I don't really like being here at this moment, I want to make up for all the trouble I've put my mom and family through.
Now to learn Italian and on a brighter side, I bought "The Avengers" and yes, I'm going to watch it in Italian with English subs which is pretty much amusing since I didn't even finish watching the movie in English but all's well ends well.
I must work hard.
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