The things that drives you to do better

I am seriously seriously extremely happy. :D

Last month, due to my obsession with Joseph Gordon-Levitt, I did some research on him and found out that he has an online company called hitRECord.org which intimidated me slightly since even though I wanted to join it so bad, I knew my skills weren't really up to par.

And then one night, after hours of studying (and I was really tired), I finally got the courage to join the site.

Initially, I didn't do much except for the occasional essay and poem but ever since I got to Italy, I wondered why I didn't try to promote myself as an artist instead.

I was lazy, yes I admit, because drawing something takes a very long time for me (more than 6 hours for a small piece) because I am an extremely detailed person.

But yesterday, I just thought, "What the heck, let's just do this" cause in a way, I'm chasing after my dream career which is to be an animator.

And so I spent close to 7 hours drawing a demon girl.

The Demon in My Dreams (literally)

(Copyright to hitRECord.org)

I was scared at first because I forgot to set the resolution to 2000 and it was 300 instead. =-=

I was scared no one would like it.

Then, this morning when I went on, I found that many people liked it, even two seniors who are really well known in that company and then I just felt so happy because of that. :D

Like I could produce something worth my time and hardwork that people liked. :D

Nevertheless, it made me want to become even better at drawing and I can only hope that the next time I draw something for the company it will be just as good.

I need to go now cause I need to go to the bank!

De-freezing

Goodness knows how many times I'll blog but when things happen, I'll definitely jot it down. I should get back into the habit of blogging on a daily basis to see how life went. I used to do this so it should be no problem at all.

So let's see, what has been happening in my life here in Italy?

I have (thankfully) made more friends and they are people I know that I can trust.
I have been walking a whole lot everywhere since public transport is freaking expensive unless you travel far away from the city.
I made a mistake of walking over 10km to a church I couldn't find so I had to track back and go to Duomo Cathedral where I shall now attend every week since I know where it actually is hahaha.
I went shopping for food and other paraphernalia I need to settle down.
I hung out and went out with people, which I normally don't do, and it has been surprisingly fun and enjoyable. Well, some parts.

And I technically go online everyday and cook everyday which is a must even though I might get lazy to because the only place to get wifi for my phone is in the kitchen and I want to keep in contact with my family.

It's also clear to see who my real friends are. I keep in contact a lot with only two people. The rest just come and go but I'm not pissed or anything hahaha.

I have also been trying to improve my drawing skills and have been diligently using my Bamboo as of yesterday as I really want to improve and post more ideas at hitRECORD of which I am slightly addicted to. I like contributing and watching the number of people who read or look or listen to something that I created and I can only hope that the numbers will increase.

Needless to say, I initially thought that I wouldn't find any eye-candy here but lo and behold there are some, but a few. I am not, however, in the mood to even get a crush on anyone, sad to say.

He made me feel like I should stop searching, but, it's okay to look. Thank you.

I can actually talk quite normally with guys now and of course there are the occasional lapse of awkwardness but they are super nice and we'll usually forget about it.

I just hope that one day I'll be able to pursue what I really want to and meet the people that I have always admired and strive to be.

These days it's getting colder but I enjoy every minute of it.

I can't wait to see home again, that I know for sure. :)

Rain of blessing

It's funny how it only started raining the minute mom left.

I got caught in supermarket because of that, playing Sudoku and listening to CNBLUE.

I was terrified at the prospect of staying on a campus, what more when I found out that everyone here is mostly older than me and are guys. And smoke.

In fact, almost everyone in Italy smoke. Especially women. So many of them.
And for that, I fear for my life.

When mom left, I felt downright sad and depressed and I honestly wanted to follow her back to Malaysia and cry because I'm still not really comfortable being here. Honestly.

But I know I shouldn't cause it's pointless so I just listen to music. And it brings everything away.

I almost cried reading Corn's blog, really. Thinking about it even makes me choke up a bit.

But yeah, I have to grow up. People will come and go their separate ways cause life likes messing up our life like that so that our roads will cross with other people's roads.

As for now, I'm fairly doing okay.

My roommate is the best I could have hoped for. We even went jogging this morning and she helps me break out from my shell bit by bit. I've already gotten to know some other people, and they are nice, enough.

Results come out tomorrow, 10.30am my time and I just pray that I'll pass.

Cause even though I don't really like being here at this moment, I want to make up for all the trouble I've put my mom and family through.

Now to learn Italian and on a brighter side, I bought "The Avengers" and yes, I'm going to watch it in Italian with English subs which is pretty much amusing since I didn't even finish watching the movie in English but all's well ends well.

I must work hard.