Absorbing their energy

I got a really good mark and was the girl with the highest mark but I somehow didn't feel happy. Maybe it's because I didn't score 30L or maybe it's because everyone was so down around me, especially my partners, since both of them got 26 so I'm sure they were bewildered as to why I got 30. I don't know why myself.

I'm just thinking about how I really shouldn't care too much about this since it isn't my dream but I find myself caring anyway. Too much sometimes.

And then it makes me all gloomy and unwanting to see the daylight.

Sometimes I really just want to do whatever I like.

But I have another exam to face and hopefully it'll all go well as well.

Exams

I don't know why but I'm feeling really nervous for my exam tomorrow. I feel like I can't sleep well tonight.

But I'll go to sleep soon enough and wake up most probably at 5.30 am to do a last minute check through all my stuff and then go to uni because I don't think I can stomach anything normal now.

Still need to finish a sack of potatoes though. =-=

Why oh why did I buy a sack of potatoes???

I've been working on my drawing both in traditional media and in digital media and I think, hopefully, they're improving and becoming more honest which, frankly, is what I aim to be able to do in my drawings. To show complete honesty and sincerity in them.

Bakuman is a really inspiring manga. Makes me want to chase after my dreams even more.

So I'm going to read another chapter or two and then go take a shower before sleeping a mere 4 hours + because honestly, I'm on a jittery end now.

Math results

I am going to retake the test and hopefully this time I'm not going to be an idiot.

Well at the very least I'll not be wasting my time online after the 18th.

Piledriver Waltz

A song which was most unfortunately not played during the Arctic Monkeys concert in Ferrara and yes it was a bit disappointing but the song line up was still really really really good.

I'm actually quite happy about this first ever concert that I've been to.

For one, it's not some crappy Malaysian artist which I was sort of afraid that I'd lose my first concert experience to that.

Second, Alex Turner sounds a heck lot amazing live.

It was worth the two hour wait to get inside the audience area, worth the one hour wait, standing in the audience area, worth the "mild" pushing and pulling action during Miles Kane's crazy performance (literally) and totally worth the scramble, insane wave of hands and body squishing and squashing throughout the Arctic Monkey's performance.

I was technically jumping out of my own will because everyone around me was jumping. That's how tight it was. My feet were lifted from the ground and that was during Miles Kane's act, not the main event.

Ten minutes into the main event, a huge wave of force came from the back and I somehow successfully stood my ground and was propelled into the second line in front of the stage while my roommate got thrown to the back sadly. In a concert, especially if you're in a moshpit situation, you are truly alone. And you need a heck load of stamina to stand your ground.

When Alex was singing She's Thunderstorms he looked in our direction and without thinking I waved my right hand at him which had been the only one in the air at that time and I swear that he stopped for a moment and we made the briefest eye-contact ever and then he looked elsewhere.

And I'm not the biggest fan ever but oh gosh I now understand why girls find him hot.

For one, he isn't cheap.

A girl was carried above the crowd and she kept saying his name out loud but he never looked her way. He didn't even look at the fan made signs and people would say that he's just cold but I think overall, he just cares a lot about his music. He was so serious the whole time but you could definitely tell that he was having a lot of fun.

Which was probably the crack he was on's doing. But anyway.

We made brief eye contact several times when he came our way and it felt spell bounding hahaha. Too bad someone else got his guitar pick at the supposed end of the show but the band came back after the short intermission and when he realised what he did, he just shrugged and strummed on his acoustic guitar with his fingers to play an acoustic version of Mardy Bum and I can't remember the other song but it was simply amazing.

Spent the night at the train station which was really horrible and I still feel dirty but I really enjoyed the concert. I really hope I can go to the one in Milan in November and get a really good spot again.

Electronic coma

I'm really praying that my phone will be able to last me until I get to Malaysia because it's really in a state of uncontrolled coma. It's my fault that it ended up in this way and I can only hope that my next phone will be cheaper with all the necessary bare essentials so that I won't need to waste much money. It'd be better if it was stronger as well hahaha.

I haven't been really productive lately, I will get to studying maths tonight.